Very true, you will always be your own worst enemy. My depression went crazy when my wife left me for another man, I could not eat or sleep or we’ll do almost anything. I lost 50 pounds, then I lost another 40 or so before I go so weak I could not even walk anymore. The thing that made me want to start getting better was my 4yr old. She came into my bedroom one day as I was getting dressed and asked me if I was dying. She said I looked like the people on tv that were starved to death and told me she did not want me to die that she loved me. I fucking broke me. And I decided at that moment that fuck everyone and fuck everything else how could I put myself into a position that I may not be there for my children. They did not ask to be here or for their parents but they are here none the less. I am back up to about 170, not quite the 230 I was but who cares. I started to notice the things that I would have missed. It’s funny what you look at every day but don’t see. Like a sunset or a beautiful sky or even two old people holding hands. Yes you may die, but guess what you will die one day regardless of what you do. I have been shot, blown up and lit on fire but I am still here so I guess I will be here until someone else decided it is my time. I hope you get better man, and you are trying so if you keep trying you will get there. If you focus on the mortality of life you will never see anything else. It is like the saying, you can’t see the forest because of all the trees.
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Yes Man,that's why I came here voluntarily.
I know I can't do it on my own and that it has to be some sort of professional help that starts me on the path and shows me the right way.
My wife's been so supportive through it all even though sometimes through the depression and anxiety I have treated her really badly. She's in contact with me every day while I'm her,sending me pictures of the kids and just we silly things that are happening throughout the day that I'm not there to see and it's like a beam of sunshine that brightens me up for a while(I'm hoping that these beams of sunshine and their affects get longer as time goes on).
I have to use my kids and my wife as a driving force to overcome and get back to the person that my wife met 14 years ago.
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Yes Man,that's why I came here voluntarily.
I know I can't do it on my own and that it has to be some sort of professional help that starts me on the path and shows me the right way.
My wife's been so supportive through it all even though sometimes through the depression and anxiety I have treated her really badly. She's in contact with me every day while I'm her,sending me pictures of the kids and just we silly things that are happening throughout the day that I'm not there to see and it's like a beam of sunshine that brightens me up for a while(I'm hoping that these beams of sunshine and their affects get longer as time goes on).
I have to use my kids and my wife as a driving force to overcome and get back to the person that my wife met 14 years ago.
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You can do it man I have faith in you. You have already made the right choices and you are extremely lucky to have a wife that is there for you though all of this. Those little rays of sunshine will eventually be the only thing you see. I still take time to watch a sunset once a week and take a few minutes to think about all the things I have in my life and how grateful I am for all of them. Even all of the little pain in the asss things that make life such a pain sometimes. I am no medical professional but I am here if you need to talk sometime. Or you could just be like my 2 yr old and run around screaming I AM AWESOME SAUCE. lol it works for him.
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You can do it man I have faith in you. You have already made the right choices and you are extremely lucky to have a wife that is there for you though all of this. Those little rays of sunshine will eventually be the only thing you see. I still take time to watch a sunset once a week and take a few minutes to think about all the things I have in my life and how grateful I am for all of them. Even all of the little pain in the asss things that make life such a pain sometimes. I am no medical professional but I am here if you need to talk sometime. Or you could just be like my 2 yr old and run around screaming I AM AWESOME SAUCE. lol it works for him.
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Greatly appreciate that Man,sometimes the easiest people to talk to are those that you don't know on a personal level.
Thanks again bud
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