These are the days that really suck. Horrible time sleeping, plenty of flashbacks waking me up and since I woke up of a few different things, and just an overall feeling of depression, feeling alone, and just overall dread. Not a good day today, these are the ones that make it hard to keep pushing alone because everything starts to get second guessed, and this is where I feel it most knowing that all of my support system that helped me through the first time are all gone.