Hey.


I'm on my last leg. As many of you already know, my girlfriend and I broke up a little while ago. It was pretty hard for me, and still is. We ended up talking yesterday and I find out that she is already trying to move and and is trying to have me do the same. She says if we are meant to be, we'll find each other again one day...


I hate it. The pain I've been through these past couple of weeks is tremendous and more difficult than anything I've gone through in my life. I just feel worthless all over again, and I feel like everything I do always slaps me in the face. I don't feel like trying anymore. I noticed I've already started reverting back to my old self like I was in high school. Quiet, to myself, wearing hoods and shit. Staying away from everyone and anyone..


I just don't know what to do anymore. I just want to rot away from this hell-hole we call life. I don't know what I've done to ever deserve the shit that is thrown at me in life, but I just can't take it. I'm one step away from being hospitalized. I... I just lost everything..