First off I have had some time to think about a lot of things. I have never been a very open person but i feel i need to be at least once. About two months ago i started going through a divorce, been married almost 10 years. Then about a month ago things got really bad, i mean really bad. I started lashing out not to be a jerk but i didnt know how to handle it. I was diagnosed with PTSD back in 2008 and always had it somewhat undercontrol untill this divorce started getting ramped up and i lost control. I started acting ways i wpuld never act which started to show here, and for that i am sincerly sorry to all of CAG! It was my own doing for not getting invites and ppl not talking to me. It was none of yous fault and again i am sorry. I started to feel cast out and felt that if my wife could leave me why shouldnt my clanmates? My wife leaving is no fault of mine beleive it or not but you all pushing away is my fault. I am not trying to make excuses but the past couple months i have not been myself.
I never wanted to leave CAG but felt like i had no other options and you all were my family in the gameing world that i left. This is a great place to be and i am asking for forgiveness to be welcomed back. I realize not everyone will want me back and i can accept that but in time i hope that changes. We have done a lot in my short time here. First team to get shocksquad, got invited to Charloe Delta as a LCPL, became a leader as well and i ruined that. Again i am sorry and i have had a lot of time to think. I just want to be back with my gametime CAG Doggs and be back in the number one clan without a doubt that is CAG.
Thank you
CAG Twonn
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