My Friend Jen *if Saddened Easily Please Don't Read*

First off before I get started if anyone needs someone to talk/vent/or anything I am always open and harming yourself or anything else in the matter can be prevented.

So, a year ago my friend Jen committed suicide... I knew her since we were in the same teen group and we became friendly since we found out we had things in common. One of them being that we both love soccer and play the same position and love video games. I then found out that she played for a local team and that she played with a couple of my friends and teammates. Now, a couple of sessions after she got moved into a new group for the people who were "doing better". I missed her and a couple of my friends because they were the only ones I talked to. She then came back to the orginal group due to time issues..Soon after I had stopped going because:
A) the doctor basically thought I was crazy
B) "Insurance issues"
C) Sports

Then one day I look on my twitter to find a couple of my friends saying RIP Jen..now I was in just getting into school so already I was upset and tried to hold it in the entire day because I had a track meet and tests...I also thought that maybe there were two Jens on the team or something? Still in shock, my friend in my math class takes me to the bathroom..She tells me that Jen was no longer with us from an email from Jen's mom on their soccer group email..Still not wanting to believe it and still to this day I can't...I was forced to go back into that therapy group which I no longer go to because I can't be there without crying my eyes out. The entire school week I would be in and out of the therapist office because I couldn't handle it. It also woke me up seeing her in a coffin and thinking that I was that way and trying to picture that in my mind was awful. I am angry at her only because there are other ways and it could have been prevented...She would have graduated high school and off to college and who have been 18...


SO PLEASE, PLEASE if you ever feel like harming yourself or anything please see someone and really tell them whats wrong and not keep it inside.

i feel you man its ruff having someone you know do something to them selfs its hard but thee are so many other things she could of done that are positive i bet she was a great person she had her hole life set its sad that she thought suicide was the only answer to her problems there are so many people in this world who are willing to help but i goign to say the same thing you said if anyone male or female needing to vent or just have a talk about there problem whether its at home,school or friends i am here no matter what!! and you the people who read this dont give up there is another way to solve your problems sicide is never the answer R.I.P. Jen

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Originally Posted by CAG Phoenix

First off before I get started if anyone needs someone to talk/vent/or anything I am always open and harming yourself or anything else in the matter can be prevented.

So, a year ago my friend Jen committed suicide... I knew her since we were in the same teen group and we became friendly since we found out we had things in common. One of them being that we both love soccer and play the same position and love video games. I then found out that she played for a local team and that she played with a couple of my friends and teammates. Now, a couple of sessions after she got moved into a new group for the people who were "doing better". I missed her and a couple of my friends because they were the only ones I talked to. She then came back to the orginal group due to time issues..Soon after I had stopped going because:
A) the doctor basically thought I was crazy
B) "Insurance issues"
C) Sports

Then one day I look on my twitter to find a couple of my friends saying RIP Jen..now I was in just getting into school so already I was upset and tried to hold it in the entire day because I had a track meet and tests...I also thought that maybe there were two Jens on the team or something? Still in shock, my friend in my math class takes me to the bathroom..She tells me that Jen was no longer with us from an email from Jen's mom on their soccer group email..Still not wanting to believe it and still to this day I can't...I was forced to go back into that therapy group which I no longer go to because I can't be there without crying my eyes out. The entire school week I would be in and out of the therapist office because I couldn't handle it. It also woke me up seeing her in a coffin and thinking that I was that way and trying to picture that in my mind was awful. I am angry at her only because there are other ways and it could have been prevented...She would have graduated high school and off to college and who have been 18...


SO PLEASE, PLEASE if you ever feel like harming yourself or anything please see someone and really tell them whats wrong and not keep it inside.

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I will never understand how someone's life can be so awful that they make the decision to not live then to live at all. While deep down you may think you're doing yourself and everyone else a favor by ending it, you're being selfish. You're hurting family and friends all so YOU can stop hurting.

Fact is, suicide is never the answer. I'll reiterate what the 2 users above me stated and if anyone is at that point in their life where they're really giving something like this contemplation then please don't hesitate to hit me up and vent it out with me. I'm down.

As for your story Phoenix, I'm sorry that you lost a friend and thanks for sharing this story with everyone. RIP Jen

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Originally Posted by CAG Beastmode

I will never understand how someone's life can be so awful that they make the decision to not live then to live at all. While deep down you may think you're doing yourself and everyone else a favor by ending it, you're being selfish. You're hurting family and friends all so YOU can stop hurting.

Fact is, suicide is never the answer. I'll reiterate what the 2 users above me stated and if anyone is at that point in their life where they're really giving something like this contemplation then please don't hesitate to hit me up and vent it out with me. I'm down.

As for your story Phoenix, I'm sorry that you lost a friend and thanks for sharing this story with everyone. RIP Jen

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The one thing I can say is if someone could just be that deep and lose their conscience which basically makes them do anything. Its the heat of the moment when everything builds up and you can't deal with anything anymore.. thats what I tell people. In my opinion you just want to make the pain stop..I don't believe its selfish even though I am mead by it.. I just want people to feel in the shoes and seeing how much sadness it would cause... Seeing yourself or in this case seing my friend in that open coffin was awful and to picture yourself like that with your friends and family grieving hurts even more

I can understand someone being in a state of mind at one time, that they would never dream or imagine being in in some other circumstance. I think it's very shitty that she ended her one and only life so soon, without seeking help or trying to some way, feel better or obtain happiness.

In my opinion, you have to have some serious balls to take your own life; especially if you are religious and know that in most religions, you're damned to hell. I personally don't know and am not here to judge. But for that to be one thing that no one knows the answer to, you really have to not want to be here anymore. I mean, I cannot imagine any other world than this one. Yes at times it can be very shitty, cruel, and unforgiving. But in my experience, it usually gets better; at least unto a point in which you can smile and think to yourself, "What was I thinking?" I like to think those people don't go to "Hell" or none of that non-sense. I like to think they get to be born into another life and be faced with those same circumstances, and get to retry their hand at taking it easy, and relaxing, and realizing that life is the most beautiful, shortest, and most longest events we will ever experience.

I just hope she was able to have her questions answered, and peace was bestowed upon her by whatever lies next for all of us.

I'm sorry for your loss, Phoenix. I just hope her situation helped some other person experiencing the same things not make the same decision she decided to make.

As I will also reiterate, life can get pretty tough, but here at CAG we are a family. My ears will always be open for my brothers and sisters that may need to vent or just let a stranger take the wheel and just... Listen. As my uncle was also a man that took his life. March 14, 1993. It's a day I'll never forget, and I hope that in the future, people will realize that suicide is not the end of their suffering, but a brand new beginning of sorrows for all individual involved that pushed love and affection in the direction of the dearly departed, depressed angels that never sought help.

I hope they finally have their wings.