Its starting to get old.

Hey whats going on guys?

Alright uh, how do i put this into words, I am a crossroads in my life, or maybe it'd be better to say, life and I are in a boxing match. And I'm losing. I won't go into detail, but I came out to California to be with family and one by one, I see smiling faces turn into backs turned on me, even my own siblings. So I am, as of now an emotional and drunken mess, And all I wish to do is be back in the comfort of my own home and with you all, the only family I feel like I have left.., I do hope that your backs aren't turned on me as well. Agh, I probably shouldn't say that, but its how I feel.

Now.., I'm not one to bitch and moan about whats going on, Ive been raised to roll with the punches, chin up and whatever you do, to keep face. Its what a man does, he becomes the shoulders and back that everyone else can lean on. But as of late, I feel like my knees have been chopped from under me, and Im being kicked repeatedly by life and even my own family. I am really at a loss, but I will do what I've always done, suck it up, and keep on rolling.

That's just whats going on with me, I miss you all, and I will also not be back till the 15 of august, also another source of my emotional stress. I want to be gone.., just gone.

Later,

If you ever wanna talk and need someone to listen.I got ya bro

I'm really sorry to hear that bro. Like Ninja said if you need anyone to talk to CAG is always here for you.

Buck up buttercup lol u know I always got ur back no matter what I will always be here for u Hun and no one in CAG will turn there backs on u u went on vacation and u are still handling things with CAG this will always be your family love ya buddy

well there are people ready and willing to talk you i would take them up on that. i can say for me i know what you mean my situation is extremely difficult i have had people tell my they can t believe i havnt commented suicide yet. of coarse i would never do that but some have some heavy things to deal with. hit me up if you wanna chat.

Chin up baby-bitch...Things only get tougher but they all me "US" stronger. These are the trials and tribulations we all have to go through and you know what is a trip about this Bro?, it's being able to forgive those people no matter what it is that they do to you.

I honestly had the most undoubtedly perfect example of an epiphany a couple nights ago and again last night. The reason I am so at peace with Myself with stuff that has happened in my Family is because I have always managed to forgive people. How? Don't ask me how I managed to do that, but I do.

Something else that has helped me, just staying away from my own Family unless we really need to see each other. Sucks that today's Families are not "wholesome" as they were before. Shit I still remember when our Family would go do shit together and I don't mean just our immediately Family but uncles, aunts, cousins, nephews, I mean the whole fucking Enchilada here you guys.

I think we are taking steps backwards as a society and turning into animals, I mean look at a Lion's pride, once a male is old enough to fend for himself he is no longer welcomed in that pride, not even by his own Mother in most cases.

We have grown so dependent on each other , actually so dependent on so many things now that we actually get sick and tired of the same old shit that we are so dependent on, if that makes any sense.

Just roll with them punches baby-bitch, we are all here for you man and we are not turning our backs on you so don't worry about that.

Ain't noone turning their backs on you! We love you and yes VERY homo !


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Major: CAG RubberDucky
Alpha Company Commander
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Come on Sidebang I got nothing but love for u homie . But if u haven't found out yet that most of the back stabbers u encounter in life are mostly ur family . Smh
Than u got a lil lesson coming homie .
Family will do u more dirty than most pepole will dog .
And that's because family fells they can fuck u in the ass and not even say thank you .
But keep ur head up homie and hit me up if u ever wanna talk homie .
Much love to you . :D

Hey man keep your head held high. I feel the pain. Got push forward and never stop don't get caught in some trap. Trap as in stuck on feelings of others you have people who care about you so care for them. But forgive those who need forgiveness for humans are not perfect we are all different. I'm in Japan man I was where you are at now but I have many friends that I consider family now. Cag is here for ya. I'm here for ya. So keep your head high and cag it up in life. Cuz life is a cag.

Hey, feel free to text me anytime. 607 621 7389